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Every now and then I feel the familiar and unwelcomed sadness setting in for no reason at all. In my teen years and early twenties, this was a fairly regular occurrence, but now, these days are few and far between. That almost makes it worse somehow.
Maybe it is the fact that I am a little tired this week. Maybe it is because I haven’t really been home in about a week and won’t really get to be there again for another week. Maybe it is because an old friend’s grandfather died yesterday and there were a lot of similarities to my own grandfather’s death nearly 3 years ago. Maybe it is because I am stuck working late on a night usually reserved for fun at my amazing friend’s house.
Or maybe it is just because that is how life is sometimes. People get sad. It happens. The smart thing would be to focus on how this is not my norm anymore. I am a generally happy person who loves her family, friends and job. The smart thing would be to remember that I have a lot of fun stuff coming up in the next couple of weeks and that this feeling is most likely going to be fleeting. The smart thing would be to call a friend and tell them how I am feeling so that they can make me laugh or something instead of posting it here on a medium that nobody reads.
Instead, I think I will wallow in this feeling for awhile. Sometimes unshed tears are worse than the tears we actually shed.
